R.W.P "If I read a book and it makes my whole body so cold no fire can ever warm me, I know that is poetry".

Emily Dickinson

It has been quite a while since I’ve written you a poem my love, I had a fear growing within me for a while now that I believe is silencing itself. Sometimes things in our lives take us to moments or times where we aren’t always the person we wish to be, growing ideas spawn thoughts or emotions, and though we try to let them rest; they linger within us somewhere deep down inside. I do regret if there has ever seemed to be even a moment where you feel you haven’t meant 100% of the world to me, if I haven’t ever kissed you sweetly from my heart, or if I have ever been a person you wished I wasn’t.

It’s a sad and hard thing to admit that sometimes I wish I was better than I am; because I always try to be my best for you. If I could be better than I am, it means (to me) that I, at certain times, am not who I wish to be.. Yet you are all that I wish I was, because you are who you are. And because I truly feel that our love will last forever, because at those times where we’re down, we’re here for one another.

Your whisper of love is strength to me, it makes me sleep soundly, takes away all of my fears, and makes my heart cry out for more. I love you, my sweet angel.

Written in the Stars

And as our lives continue to pass,
Sand remains in the hourglass,
For these days we hold so dear,
Always hold the heart so clear,
And though the times we’ve had,
Have eternally made me so glad,

That life has brought me through,
All the doors of hurt, to you,
For you are all the lights,
On my very darkest of nights,
And though those nights are past,
The echo of their memories last,
Like a reminder of my days,
Still remains a lingering haze,

Though the days of fear are done,
And our lives have truly begun,
I promise to you now,
That I shall always hold this vow,

To hold your heart so high,
It’ll almost touch the sky,

The luckiest love is ours,
It’s written in the stars.

To Exist

We are here for reasons we do not know… some of us try to know, yet fail; because of the way we grow. We feel that we know something, anything, for true, we don’t really care for the proper reasons though, and some day we will forget what we believe we know, so that thing is not true; and does not exist. Yet in combination with what we know, and forget, at the time we know it; it does exist, yet not for us, as we did not learn it… no thought is ever learned, nor is it forgot; it simply exists at certain times, in certain people, for certain reasons. We can learn and be free if we want, from the existence of thought, by forgetting all that we are, and allowing ourselves to simply become the existed ideas we once had. Most will never realize this, because we feel we need to hold on to ideas or we will forget them, most people are not old, and not dead… and so the idea is always there if we wish to have its power, so there is no reason not to forget and live.

I know how to exist, and how to live; the power comes from the idea of overcoming the problems we have, not by forgetting them, but realizing that they exist whether we know they do or have never heard of them ever before. Some people turn to drinking, some turn to drugs, others turn to sleep, or sex, anything they use to forget the reality they exist within; I turn to being alive, for living is a thing we all do, the ideas, the problems, and the solutions all exist; this is why if we want to overcome a problem, we just allow it to slip out of our head, and the solution will slip in if we want it to, if we hold onto the idea of the solution.. most are so consumed by the problems that they don’t take the time to live, or to feel the life around them. If we wish for a solution, and we can calm ourselves long enough to release the problems control upon us, it will appear. I’ve always tried to embrace the good, to find something, a rock, something stable to hold on to, and when that thing appears, and is strong enough to be with us, it can act as a beacon to overcome the problems we endure.. people will say you never had a problem, if you do not tell them of your problems; yet if you feel that those were simply not problems, and just ideas in your life which existed within you at one time, than you may not believe in them either.

Of course some speak of ignorance, or they speak of the idea that forgetting or putting a problem aside will only allow it to consume them, then so be it, that’s simply another idea. Yet if those exact people knew that solutions exist merely as ideas which manifest, they may realize the power of true ignorance; who lives a life? The one who worries and fears the world, yet is educated; or the one who lives and smiles, dancing in the night and making love, yet is ignorant to the fact of some upcoming problem? The idea can bounce around back and forth forever, but so can the solution to what we know, so why speak to anyone in a bad way, when we could say a nice thing; or be happy that a good person is in our life, and by conveying a nice idea to them, can bring them a smile, which can come back upon us? All we say or do is a conveyance of ideas, and some people can manifest good if they are brought good, take a chance that the person who loves or even cares for you as a friend can bring you good, forget the problem and live.

Beyond this most people sadly believe that living is leaving their house, or leaving themselves, to become someone else, they believe travelling or doing activities, or engaging in things is living; but living occurs, until we die. And then we live again, so death is simply the act of forgetting about life; you can sit in a chair all your life and live, if you are happy, and many people do this; and live amazing lives. Yet beyond this yet again is life, the forgetful act of death, going beyond the heads of most is this idea, when a spirit forgets death, it is reborn. Because nothing can be destroyed, we travel on! So don’t just live to die, forget about death and live; I suppose it’s easier to say than to do for some, but I live tonight, because I write this without thought; and you can see the solution in it, if you look closely, and with innocence, with eyes open and full of life. If you want it.

Live.. you aren’t old, you aren’t dead, forget the problem, and the solution is yours..

If we learn to comprehend the ideas of attaining the results we wish to procure; we must first understand what it is exactly that we want. There is an idea which has been circulating for the past few years, based on the idea of a ‘Secret’ which has even been created into a documentary. It outlines the idea  that if we focus our thoughts, and allow these thoughts to attain the most contained hold of our will and of our minds, that the result will be exactly as we would wish.  A great hindrance of this ideology is simply that it cannot do the impossible; for it holds that word “Impossible” as a defined block which it teaches as a stable and quite finite thing. Although the ideas of this mindset is very limiting, it can teach the basic fundamentals of what we are working with; we must take it further than the impossible if we wish for any true result.

We must first allow ourselves to completely obliterate the word ‘Impossible’ from our minds; as there are no impossibilities when we direct all the power of our world.  With saying such a thing as that, we may feel the idea that it is either too big a venture to step forward upon; or that simply we require a hindrance of all that we are, to humble and preserve what we are. At the timely occurrence of when this ‘changing’ has begin to shape our lives, we will no longer require the shackles which bind us to rules, or anything which may hold us back. As we grow and take upon ourselves the shroud of this change; we will have grown far beyond the petty indulgences of a limited life, and no required rule will exist. Imagine if you can the idea that all the world knew right from wrong; that it required no punishment for rule breaking, as no punishment could occur greater than the guilt felt by committing such an act; which would cause even in the smallest degree, a person to fall inwards upon themselves with such contempt that they would spend all of their days making up for their wrong. In such a world we would need no rule, for each person would rule over their own destiny; much in the same way that most people try to do today, yet ambition of acceptance in our society has deeply clouded what most see or do. People believe they are free because of the ability to make choices, this is a path of ignorance which our society has lain simply out for us to follow; it exists so we will feel content with being ruled over, since we feel that at certain times it may appear that we have a choice.

Society in truth does not allow any choice to be made; if it did then we would have people living their lives to any degree they would wish; their dreams and ambitions would come true, and society would be ruined. The truly free mind can administer a vast array of sensations and ambitions in unison to achieve its goals; it needs nor has a limit to the extent it is connected to.

Often people speak of things they devote themselves to; almost as if the readings of modern devotees towards certain subjects can allow the individual to develop an understanding of what they study. An understanding of words in a language is only one small part of the underlying thought; for how can you define a subject by words when unsuitable definitions are sparingly compiled for that definition to occur? People are taught definitions of certain words; which are compounded upon each other to form a greater definition, but what if the root definition of one small word was incorrect? If we were to take a basic definition of life, to say that the biological construct shields the mind and structure of what it contains in such a fashion that it exists until its chemical unison degrades and its physical structure fails. We would, too many people; in simpler terms, be agreed upon; yet what if we spun the definition of life back through the ages to simpler times, it would still be agreed upon in those days. Most people of today frown upon the ideas of our past, at least where science or progression appears; they dwell on some certain small aspects which exist in our history, from relics of the past. However in most cases they feel that our definitive existence pinnacles anything of any time of our human history; even more naturally inclined people feel that in some way they are ahead of the game in certain ways.

We cannot afford to allow the ideas of our modern education to influence our lives in such ways which disregard the teachings of our past lives. It is only the methods we learn, and how we live in our society which has bound our minds from seeing truth beyond instruction. Reading to this point may seem as if I am against advancement and education; yet truthfully I seek to only allow us to see the faults in learning from people who know nothing of what they teach, so that we can base only what we know on what we learn for ourselves. People would say that redefining all that we know, and relearning it all is impossible; for we have spend so many years learning it, how about the idea that we never learned it; and that the only time we learn a thing is when no guide or substitute can be found for the ocean of learning which we can tap if we so require it. Deep down within us all is a programming of knowledge, from our very youngest age our body knows how to grow and to prolong its life; before science says we have the capacity to learn or truly know consciousness; our body knows what to do. Without instruction of course we would not advance as quick, yet after our basic instructions have been given; we must grow beyond the shell and beyond the limited ideas of what is written.

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I use to dream about a time in my life where the world would reward me for all the good I tried to do. I kept my chin up and kept hope alive that even in the darkest of days I would one day have an answer to why I am so alone. I was always told that good guys finish last, and I was a shining example of that; always taking people with the worst dealt hands I could find and providing them with a stepping stone out of the pit which was their lives. I had never known that by doing so, someday a person strong enough with the one thing I was missing could find me, and pull me out of my own pit, the pit called loneliness. I’ve had issues and things to hold me back in my life, I’ve had troubles and fears, I couldn’t imagine even trying to compile the fears; but there is no need at all anymore. For being who I am, has brought me you, my perfect dream come true.

And as the days goes by,

No reason to ever ask why,

For the happy days are here,

Shaping my vision crystal clear,

I know what’s in my heart,

A key which shall never depart,

The path which has imbued,

Each thought to forever include,

The light you’ve brought to me,

And the beautiful smile I see,

Each time I look in your eyes,

The wonderful surprise,

It simply all began,

Simply being who I am,

In return it has brought me you,

My perfect dream come true.